Thank you all
Kencho sum for the beautiful life
Kings for the peaceful nation
Father and mother - for the best you have given under your trying times and circumstances
Kids - for the love and blessing of opportunity to be your mother, for being responsible and thoughtful beyond measure
Sister - for your tenacity and energy to care
Brother - for realizing the family values though late in life and being a good soul
Brother - for your role model as a compassionate and altruistic human being
Friends- for sticking by through thick and thin, for providing spiritual companionship, for providing life and care, for appreciating my values principles and whatever I stand for
For the roles in leadership
For the roles in companionship
Senior colleagues - for the exemplary deeds and lessons

Today is a big success. Success as in breakthrough of my habit in a long time that I have been struggling with. Yesterday I decluttered my room, bathroom, kitchen n some parts of living room. Took out a huge pile of clothes n stuffs to give away or chuck.
Set alarm at 5  am and got up exactly on time to drink. A liter of water and read till 6 am. Then again washed some clothes. And set out the day with a huge sense of accomplishment.

Came home at 6 pm did 15 min of kora n started to plan effective routine for my day.
It would be like this from now on.

5 am - read 30 min - motivational books , drink water.
Gratitude journal
530 am -  wash/laundry
6 am - prayers n yoga
6 am - breakfast
7 am  -  map out the day
Think positive-network- exercise daily eat healthy work hard stay strong build faith worry less read more be happy volunteer relax love live life



Evening routine

Unwind
Assess the day
3 priorities for tom
To do list
1 leisure
Plan food for next day
Clean
Read
Recharge electronics
Clothes for next day

Looking at the timeline of my blog , looks like I m really enjoying my life out of the blog.  It is like a Bayul where a several years feels like a minute. Not really enjoying but sucked into the daily mundane routine of running the seemingly important work which from the rear has a different level of importance depending on who puts it up. So after all it's all relative. Anyway good record I returned to blogging in 10 days . Need yo close the gap to 2-3 days depending on events worth journaling.  

Anyway I am still in escape mode and bothered my many things I owe to myself- starting from simple thing as drinking water, n stop alcohol, set a healthy predictable daily routine with simplified essential paraphernalia, minimize belongings to essentials, and read and write and do yoga. 

Am I alarmed that I could not churn out 1000 word essay in jolly good two hours. People say Kuwait was invaded in 5 min. But then just as an excuse, how much went into the preparation  - time , people ,ration, supplies, technology and money.  It's one of those excuses that kept me from doing what I need to do to keep my gray matter greased and ever convoluted than ever  and as gray as it can be.

That was once instance that subtly suggested (which I easily habitually and conveniently ignored) that I need to take up reading and do more of regular writing which can stimulate my imagination and thinking.  My brain has hardened and set like a cement. The only difference is the gray matter n grey matter. Otherwise my brain has lost all the convolutions.   I realized that whatever one reads  just settles  in and hardens like cement when one  doesnot exercise those ideas, words, designs  in writing. 

Not very long after that I had to write another two articles. What a pain it was,  like chronically constipated shitting.  Still I did not budge. But the guilt of  slowly murder of my brain is piling on. 

Then the 23rd April came. Just noticed 1 hr before it's expiry that it's world book and copywriter day. Reflected on the auspicious of the day and decided to start my pet project - writing.  Furiously Punched in the broad framework, key layout, and list of elements that made up 4 Pages.  Yes I did it in 30 min - even a skeleton idea is out there . 

Then today on 24thapril looked up blog of one of my fav blogger Kinga and found no new updates. Notthatihave read all. So made a mental note of commitment to read all over time starting from the oldest. Seeing her trepidations in the beginning, I mustered my courage to blog , even as bad a blogger i maybe.  Even  iamdrupa 's appreciation of artists as true to self despite deliriuness helped.  I figured out thatishoups have started to blog justto appease my insanity.  Rather than being critical of my own self subjecting to supposedly criticism that weren't even conceived inthe people I thought might see my blog. Crazy . But my fears are legitimized by the my most eloquent blogger I hold on pedestal.  Just realized as the one has to keep on blogging to capture the moments in  immortalized the thoughts and feelings for the moments that will never be repeated.  I w

Ill blog now. 

 N thought of opening a blog page brand new one. Thenbut found myself on my old blog and again read through my old articles. We'll started with tashi Stepanakert. Then1 to 2 hiccups a year. Total of seven. The last one was totalgreek to me.  The blog is  It was one year older than 11th five year plan.